I’m writing some notes down in one place that are notes about my health this summer.
I just copies over the notes on how to prevent a pelvic flare into this journal I’ve created on just medical stuff this summer.
I was getting neurotic about trying to manage my pain. It was everywhere it seemed related to my pelvis and GI. They were all interconnected and here I sit today so much better. Unbelievable.
So I guess I got and am getting better. I don’t want to forget how bad it was and also that I actually did get better.
I was and also still am into slogans. Some that I used this summer: Everything happens for a reason (?); the universe is working for your good; God is on my side; Get in the water.
I also noted on the same paper that I as yet didn’t have a good sense of purpose. I had it when the kids were younger and also the founding of the business. Small group too. What will it be next?
More notecard notes: There is a lot of loss but I’m not a victim. This is life. Life has suffering. I can accept this without being okay, and realize I can accept life w/ suffering in it.