Brunch with friends yesterday on NYDay.
More wonderful traditions that have evolved over the years.
I feel like I’m eating an awful lot though.
Next year.
Our holidays weren’t particularly spiritual I guess in the sense of prayers and Bible readings or stories. I felt our closeness brought us together in a new way this year. I have at times forced different things, and it feels holy to let some of that go and let our closeness be the holy.
Beautiful closeness feels like what Jesus came to be and do, a choice that wasn’t always an option in warring times. I’m grateful for all the healing that’s happened in our family and ready to celebrate that as a way to celebrate the birth of the Baby.
Amen.
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Today was therapy day down in the Palouse. More insights concerning how to keep healthy and move up the emotion chart from despair and powerlessness to hope and happiness. Choices, boundaries, options, small steps, not leaps.
I am not typing my notes up like I used to. I feel like I’ve needed to back off on the learning and try and be more present for my time w/ Kay. She won’t be doing this forever.
I feel like I’ve slipped into seeing various people as their retirement time nears. It feels like I’ve been grabbing their wisdom before they transition to a quieter, less professional life. I’m very grateful for the path that has been laid before me of intense healing in the middle of intense pain.
I think there’s definitely a myth I hold that one type of suffering is worse than another. We have so many things we never worry about while we have to focus on the things that have been broken.
I want to keep repairing what’s been lost, but I want to keep my eyes always as well on all the blessings. The health. The finances. The kids. The place we live. The people. So much natural beauty. It’s a choice, it really is.
I have harder days than others but even in all that, I can always find something good to think about, to be grateful for. It’s a skill that I haven’t mastered, one that takes practice until it becomes more of a habit than it is for me now.
Onward.