We returned from our trip a second-world country, Louisiana, late Monday night. I spent the week recovering, unpacking, getting ready for more visitors and getting sick.
We had a good weekend entertaining KT's fiance's parents, showing them the venue and rehearsal dinner restaurant they'd selected. We connected and shared some stories about our kids. I'm grateful they are solid people and so are we. Our kids have good support going into marriage and hopefully we will both give them the freedom they need.
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I'm learning to take care of myself in the midst of high stress situations. A telling me that it's good to be strong in the situation but then fall apart afterwards. That's normal. Ah, I'm starting to see now. So it's not black/white... you have complete control over yourself and emotions or none; it's being able to be strong when you need to be but being human and expressing how you feel as well, crying, laughing, whatever it is.
Jay mentioned that I am getting more mentally tough but in the past, I just get angry. That's sort of allows me to withdraw from the situation and not really deal with what's happening. I thought that was pretty observant and something that fits in with some other things I'm learning.
Not all family members like to be together. In fact, sometimes family is more challenging than almost any other group of people. I'm so grateful for friends.
Arnaudville, LA
CHANGES/REFLECTIONS:
- Being an advocate for myself. Calling the doc finally when I had these symptoms get worse and worse (bit by a tick... eek!)
- Loving and being present but letting my parents live their life as it is and will be.
- Getting stronger and taking more charge of my life. Being responsible.
- Staying calm, do what I can do which isn't everything